Meh.

Today was awesome. School blah blah. I failed a math test, no big deal.

But after school I hung out with a couple of people that I normally don't do very often. When I was at Destination Imagination Global Finals we lived together so we will always have a bond, but it was really fun. I wrote all over the-girl-I-visited-during-lunch's notebooks and she wrote on my friends collar bone and belly in Sharpie. We were also given apples. It was a great day.

Then I came home and my fucking cousins are over again. MOST ANNOYING CHILDREN IN THE WORLD!

Now, I'm really, really tired and I want to go re-read An Abundance of Katherines until I fall asleep.

Today Was Awesome, Until It Was Notsome (You Might Not Want to Read This, It's an Emotional Rant at the End)

Today I had far less homework than I normally do. It was extremely relaxing and I was able to get all of it done before dinner and watch my Thursday night TV. Two of my favorite TV shows are on Thursday nights, Vampire Diaries and Destination Truth. Both of which were great episodes.

My day at school was great as well. I didn't have much work to do in school and my classes during school were awesome, well except for math and science. And gym. I'm such a cliche. But my gym class is awful. It's "weight training" and the only females in the class are me and a friend of mine, the rest are football players and disgusting. A Streetcar Named Desire has become on of my favorite plays. I'm really not big on reading them, I only like seeing them performed, but this one is really awesome and the story keeps you attentive to what is going on. There are no long, boring monologues.

During lunch I went to see my friend that is still in the middle school (because all of my friends are like four years younger than me) and I haven't seen her in months and that was really awesome even though I only got to see her for like five minutes.

After school I then went to see my global teacher from last year (who I'm in love with actually). I lent him the book Mockingjay and I stayed with a friend of mine in his classroom talking about movies because he is a huge movie buff and I told him I would lend him Where The Wild Things Are because he has not yet seen it and he said, "You're like my best friend!" Needless to say this made me extremely happy.

We then proceeded to talk about old kung-fu movies and he showed us a few scenes from "The Legend of the Flying Guillotine" or something very similar to that title. It was the funniest thing in the world. And I get to go see him tomorrow if I can re-find Where the Wild Things Are. I found it, then I lost it again, because I am a moron.

Then I came home and the notsome part of my day commenced. I babysit my brother and sister after school usually and they are the most annoying little children in the world and think that they don't have to listen to me. What's worse than that is my other sister who's two years younger than me and think that she's the top of the world. She thinks that the entire world revolves around her and that everyone should be her bitch and cater to her every need. I'm not even kidding. I was in the middle of typing this post, and my computer is the only one compatible with the printer. She needed to print out a paragraph for English class and desperately wanted to go to bed so I needed to stop what I was doing immediately and cater to her every need.

My mother also thinks the world revolves around her, and has a serious case of internet addiction. I'm pretty sure it's breaking up her marriage right now, not that she would ever fucking admit to it. I will jump up my computer for one second, to go to the bathroom or see something and she'll think I'm taking a break, so she can grab my computer for a second while she runs to the garage for a cigarette (aka to smoke pot which is something else I've recently found out about; not because she told me but because I found the fucking pot baggie. I didn't even know what it was, I had to look it up online.) She doesn't seem to realize that I need my computer. Not only to do work, but because the shit that's she's putting our family through right now makes me need some sort of outlet and somewhere to get a new family because I fucking hate mine, and my place to do that is the internet. She also doesn't realize that I bought my computer so that I would always have access to it. I did NOT buy it for the whole fucking house to use, and she thinks that I'm "selfish" for not letting her use my laptop when I'm it. I can literally be in the middle of typing something, and maybe have a piece of paper on my lap and she'll say that I'm reading, I can't be on my computer at the same time. The truth is that my mom is the selfish bitch. About two years ago she was having problems with her teeth and instead of just having the work necessary done, which is something we could have afforded, she decided to go spend $20,000 on a brand new pair of teeth. Now she doesn't even have enough money in the bank to spot me$16 for guitar strings, and she thinks that I'm selfish. On top of that she began smoking after six years of quitting and apparently began fucking smoking pot too. Ruining the fucking teeth that she spent so much fucking money on.

I'm really sorry about that last rant. I've just had all of that fucking building inside of me, and it's not like I can tell anyone. I don't feel comfortable around any of my friends enough to tell them this. Also I'm PMSing.

Wow, I'm Earlier Than Usual

So my day was semi-eventful. I had double math and science today and that was the worst thing in the world, but I also had double art. I was able to talk to people that I am great friends with, I just don't get to talk with them too often. During lunch I went to Dunkin Donuts though with a friend who I haven't really gotten to talk to lately but it was super fun gossiping with her. After school, I was just walking around at the school and I saw the teacher that I am in love with and I know that he read The Hunger Games and Catching Fire, so I asked him if he had read Mockingjay yet, and he hasn't and he's like fourth in line in his family to read it, so I'm lending him my copy. He is now going to be forever indebted to me apparently, I mean, not that I mind. After school, I came home and read Paper Towns for a few hours, then wound up passing out. I took a nap for a few hours and then when I woke up I felt so gross. I'm pretty sure I'm getting sick which sucks. Sorry this post is so scatterbrained, I still feel sick, so I think I'm going to go to bed before midnight for the first time this week. So goodnight I guess. Nothing else was fun about today, although if I think of anything I'll be sure to let you know. Also tomorrow I'll be seeing the girl that I am in love with so it's going to be awesome.

Essay About Evil

This was the assignment:
Evil is present in literature, in our daily lives, and the world at large. However, how a person chooses to face that evil impacts whether it will spread or diminish. Before fully exploring how a person should act in the face of evil, it may be necessary to determine how that person does act in the face of evil. Did he/she act appropriately? Could he/she have acted differently to change the results of the situation for the better? "What is evil?" may also be an essential question that must be contemplated.

This was my essay:

When one is faced with evil, it must first be determined what that evil is. My brother calls me evil whenever I'm bothering him; what I'm doing is not evil though, it's just mean. What must be determined is everyone's view on where the line between evil and bad is crossed. I think that line is crossed when one does not regret the bad things that have been done and when they have no feelings about committing horrendous crimes like murder or rape. Another question that is essential to understanding what evil is would be where the evil is coming from. I think that there are two main origins of evil. I think that the two main locations are inside of you, an internal, personal demon, and outside of you, an external evil. Both of those are harmful to people both mentally and physically.

When one is faced with internal evil, I believe that they should act in a way to get rid of those demons, such as therapy or confronting them. In Harry Potter and Order of the Phoenix, Harry is having nightmares in which he sees into Voldemort and Nagini's mind. When Harry sees their actions inflict pain on his loved ones, like when Nagini attacked Mr. Weasley, Harry believes that he is the one that performed those actions and he thinks that he is to blame for Mr. Weasley almost dying. Harry then reacts by staying away from all of his loved ones, afraid that he will turn into a giant snake and attack them. He believed that the evil was coming from inside of him and that his subconscious thoughts and actions were to blame. Harry reacted that way in the face face of internal evil, but I don't believe that was the way that Harry should have acted in the face of evil. I think that Harry should have confronted what he knew to be evil, which ultimately, with occlumency (blocking Voldemort's thoughts and actions from seeping into his mind during his sleep), is what wound up happening.

Harry is also faced with the external evil of Voldemort and the Death Eaters. They present a constant external evil. I believe that Voldemort is the epitome of evil. The only thing he wanted was power over all. He used hatred of those that did not have pure wizard blood to fuel his campaign and he went around merciless torturing and killing those that simply didn't agree with him. He had no regret for his actions and did things that evil wizard before him wouldn't even think of doing, such as creating seven horcruxes. He did that by splitting his soul seven times, meaning he murdered seven people, which divided his soul in half, and then placed that soul into another object. He did this so that even if he was murdered, he would be able to come back to life. He used hatred and greed to gain power over others and preyed on the weak. That is what I think evil is.

Another example of evil in pop culture is in the television show Buffy the Vampire Slayer. There were two teenagers who were called upon to be the slayers of vampires, Buffy and Faith. Faith, after having accidentally killing a human, joined forces with a demon that she thought would win and became a hit woman for him, while Buffy stayed with what she believed was the good side. Buffy then attempted to kill Faith, to cure her boyfriend who Faith poisoned. After Faith killed a human being, she broke down and stopped caring about her actions, while Buffy regret her action afterwords and was extremely sorry about what she did.

There are many different faces of evil, and it's up to each person to determine what they believe on the subject. I believe that people should face evil with fortitude and bravery and try to destroy it before it can blossom. Evil can have many different appearances. Weather it's your face, or the face of a monster. All evils are capable to overcome, and the way a person should act in the face of evil should be straight forward and vicious. They should be looking to destroy that evil. I know that doesn't always happen, and that evil may always be lurking in darkness, but if enough people believe that evil can be overcome, ultimately it can. Evil is an intangible thing and is given power by thoughts. If people had a more positive attitude and intolerance and hatred didn't exist, neither would evil.

Ahh! I'm Dumb! and Net Neutrality

So what is it with me and constantly forgetting about blogging and only doing it every other day? I have no idea why I do that. But today I have a lot of things to talk about because I have to talk about today and yesterday and right now I am freezing cold and have a fan blowing right at me so I'm attempting to type this as fast as possible so I apologize for any spelling/ grammar issues I don't pick up.

So today I educated myself with what's going on on the net neutrality front. Major internet and cable providers want to pass something in legislation that allows them to charge exorbitant amounts so that webpages load faster. It's pretty much censoring the internet so only the people who have money have webpages that are able to load. That isn't cool at all! If you go to this link, you can learn a lot more about net neutrality and send an email to your local important politicians. And that is it on net neutrality.

For the past two days of school it has been work, work, and more work. I have finally turned in all of the assignments that have been eating their way through my thoughts and I am slowly making my way through all of my homework in a decent amount of time. I have finished my English essay and after I finish this I believe I will be posting it on here because I love it so much. Let's hope that nobody in my school knows of this blog and plans to steal it. Although the chances of that are very slim.

Yesterday I also had my first CHARM meeting. It's an independent study in which we study the humanities and we create a portfolio piece each month of the year. It's a new program at my school and we are the guinea pigs so hopefully it winds up becoming an actual class in the school. It was only and introductory meeting but so far it seems like it's going to be a great program.

I also sort of had my first GSA meeting, it consisted of me and this kid I don't really like but he thinks we're best friends and next to nothing was accomplished because he thinks that he is in charge of everything and that everyone should listen to him because he is SO important. He's one of those people. My classes are going really well so far and even though there's a lot of work, I feel like I'm going to have a lot of fun this year. I'm really enjoying my AP US History class even though I thought that I was going to hate it. So far it's been a really good class.

I've also been hanging out at the school library way more than I have any other year. I was the first one to take out a book from the school library this year. NERD! But today I took out the only two John Green books that my library has. I'm going to look him up on the computer though and see if there are anymore that are just taken out or hiding from me. I'm also going to be leaving nerdfighter notes in them.

Apparently all of my friends are nerdfighters and I am just COMPLETELY oblivious. I was actually really good with these people as well.

I am so happy that fiveawesomegirls is back. It's making my weekdays a little more awesome.

So I Totally Lied

Well I completely lied about posting at all yesterday, let alone an in the middle of the day post. So today's post should be extremely long because I have lots to talk about. So Friday afternoon my aunt and my cousins just drop by to spend the weekend. They have a habit of doing that and I think that it's the most annoying thing in the world. They think that because they are family we should be open to receive them anytime but that's really not how it goes. They are obnoxious and have a habit of treating my house like their own, which it is not. It's not okay to make a mess and then expect that I'll clean it up because it's my house. It's not okay to act like my mother when clearly you're not. Sorry about the rant about how much I hate my family. They are just the most annoying things.

Then that night, I finished my essay that has been ruining all of my thoughts forever. It's done, done, done, done. I never have to look at it again, except for one last edit sometime tomorrow. I also started working on my amazing English assignment. it's about Harry Potter. I love being able to write about Harry Potter for school. It lets me stretch my Harry muscles and makes me feel knowledgeable about things.

The next day I went to my dad's house which was really nice because I don't see him nearly as often as I would like to. I got to see my baby brother and oh my goodness as he grown since the last time that I saw him. He is able to understand simple instructions and he can say "all done", "mama", "dog", "nana" and other simple words. When he was a baby my step mom taught him all done and more in sign language along with some other miscellaneous words so he was able to ask for simple things without just crying.

We went for a walk in the park that is no joke dedicated to the Great Potato Famine in Ireland. In New York. What is the point of that? I have no idea who would build that, but they had a really awesome biking/ walking trail, and while you're walking on it, while pushing a baby car like thing, it is scary when bikers are coming full speed at you and you don't know which way to go. But we survived, barely.

Around bridges I get REALLY paranoid that I'm going to fall off. I'm not good at balancing as is, but bridges I am terrified of. While I was walking with my brother, all I could think of is what would happen if he got out of the car and then ran towards the side of the bridge. He's so small, and he falls a lot, so it would not be hard for him to fall off accidentally. I'm always SO paranoid that some freak event is going to happen.

Then today, I sat around and played guitar all day, pretty much. I'm just learning the guitar and I'm getting pretty good at it. I'm missing one of my strings though so I don't know where my finger goes on that string for any of the chords, but whatever. I've been obsessed with Lauren Fairweather's music lately, and I learned some of her songs on my broken guitar. The one problem with my music is that I cannot sing. I am completely tone def, so it's really unfortunate that I like music so much. Even though my love for writing trumps my love for music.

My friend also came over and we worked on a graphic organizer for our APUSH class that's due with the essay. We have a lot of holes in the essay so my friend is going to be getting the rest of it from her twin brother who is also in the class, and who had it done long ago.

Oh! This morning I also went to AC Moore for my art supplies and they are so pretty! I got new drawing pencils and charcoal and acrylic paints and chalk pastels and new kneaded erasers and a new sketchbook. I'm an art geek and I love new art supplies, so much.

Essay Writing, Oh Wow.

So my entire day has been consumed with writing an essay for history class. So this post will be brief.

The only interesting thing that happened was that my Aunt and my cousins stopped by for a visit until Sunday. I'll talk more about that later, I am REALLY tired right now. Maybe I'll post a middle of the day post tomorrow instead of my usual right before bed posts.

I also finished watching season three of Buffy and can't wait to start season four, I just need time and lack of school work to get that done.